[27 Apr 2004|11:19pm] Lying in bed, the covers a shield from reality Lying next to you, a thousand miles away The moment fights with reason, my impulses battling the truth The desire to kiss you overwhelms my weak form, But our moves have been made, the pieces in place And we’ve landed ourselves a stalemate How is it right to sit here idle How is it right to be together, apart How is it wrong to show you affection When you are the cell that is jailing me If I could freeze this moment, or endlessly loop it And ignore consequences, ignore the future I would follow my body, my heart and my soul But nothing is frozen; the future looms near Our reality will soon take it’s toll post comment

[19 Apr 2004|12:11am] And with the steady beat of my chest Her necklace bobs up and down Never will it come to rest I know it’s for the best But the best is what clouds my vision The golden memories that rise to the surface Eclipsing the pain below Fourty twenty foresite Twenty fourty hindsite Everything’s pretty through the lense of nostalgia Everything’s worth it once you’ve let go And with the steady beat of my chest Her necklace bobs up and down Never will it come to rest Fade away good I want the bad to sharpen I want my actions justified Prove my decision right I want to see storms, And rain and hail and thunder But all I see is sunshine, rainbows Fluffly clouds and light And with the steady beat of my chest Her necklace bobs up and down Never will it come to rest But even through the guilt trips, The fights, the tears, the screams I fear that I may have left The woman of my dreams And even through the guilt trips, The fights and all the screams I fear that I just left The woman of my dreams post comment

[15 Mar 2004|10:41pm] This is just a fragment; in progress. ~~~ My fingertips ache for the feel of your skin and my hands long for your back My arms want to hold you, protect you from pain To make up for the things that I lack My lips restlessly anticipate contact with yours My hands want to hold you, protect you from harm My torso's too light, it lacks your weight When you run up and jump in my arms I want to lie with you, our limbs helplessly twisted Our bodies melting together into one Fitting together like two puzzle pieces Lying blissfully under the sun 1 comment|post comment

[11 Mar 2004|05:03pm] My favorite song I've written. ~~~ It's so great to see you It's been way too Goddamn long Let's reminisce about old times And all the fun we used to have Chorus: Inside joke here Meaningful memory there Sudden realization that you've grown out of reach That one doesn't go anywhere We never talk anymore I've just been really busy But I'm glad I saw you here I forgot how close we used to be (chorus) It was so nice to talk I just love catching up I have to get going now But we should hang out soon But we should hang out soon (chorus) 3 comments|post comment

[11 Mar 2004|04:58pm] My first song. ~~~ all the times that we had feel so close to me now all the things that we did i can't comprehend how we'll be leaving ourselves soon in just a few days the memories linger in a troubled, blue haze when we saw exit wounds the first time we hung out to the runs down magnolia out the window we'd shout chorus: these are the days i remember these are the moments i love these are the times i know that i'll cherrish when i'm no longer here, dwelling above i don't regret a thing well that isn't true i regret not spending enough time with you we never spoke of it but i know it exists an unbreakable linking that i already miss it was clear everytime we said hi or fuck you it never was mentioned but you felt it too (chorus) when we've drifted apart further than now and you're working at the washington post remember the hours, the days we spent laughing remember the times that meant the most they cannot be brough back with money or fame but everytime that i hear someone say your name i'll know that our connection exists to this day through all of the hardships, all of the pain i love you to death, i mean that for real but i'll never know if that's how you feel 2 comments|post comment

[11 Mar 2004|04:56pm] I don't think this even qualifies as a song, but whatever. ~~~ Driving back from my house, We chatted about this and that I’m in love with someone else But you’re the one that I know I’d be happy with You’re the only girl who’s made me laugh The only one on the same level as me And I didn’t take advantage when the door was open And now it’s closed indefinately You don’t want to get involved with me Because I’m involved with someone else Why can’t we go back and Pretend she never happened? I can fall out of love And even if I don’t This opportunity can’t be missed Please come back to me! It will kill me and become my biggest regret yet If I don’t take you now, if I let this slip through post comment

[20 Feb 2004|08:04am] We sit on the couch, the rain beating down My arms around his knees, I hold on for his comfort He comforts me, and loves me back But his eyes' focus dart elsewhere She's far, far away, me and him are right here Would he be with her if she was more near? If I'm his number two, his number one a voice on the phone Than he can be with that voice, but he'll still be alone Saying he wants me, I'm his love but I must wait I'm starting to get impatient, waiting for out date He needs sometime to get over her and then he can settle down But if this doesn't happen soon, and his gaze remains out of town I might just give up. I love his smile, his laugh, and his touch I want to love him, and to be with him, and I want it so much But if tomorrow she moves out here, if tomorrow she hops on a plane, Will he drop me in an instant for her, and is my love worth that pain? If my heart is in Asuza, but my crush is in Marin Is being with my crush an unforgivable sin? And if I visit her in LA, will my crush fade away? Or will my feelings for her freeze, inactive but they stay? post comment

[09 Feb 2004|09:04pm] Your glistening portrait's been Splattered with the oily stains of betrayal Your apologies cannot wash them off and Nothing can remove the streaks Running down your picture like The tears down my face You've held me tight and Given me consul While ordering my execution behind my back So when the snipers fire and the blood flows I'll be in your arms And you can tend in vein To the wounds that you caused If you put out a hit on enough of your friends They'll stop coming to you for help They'll dodge the bullet And it will hit you instead And no one will be left To help stop the bleeding And you'll die, friendless and alone post comment

[27 Jan 2004|09:32pm] I like you. I would like to have a relationship with you. Would you like to join me, and we can have exciting adventures and journeys? I think it will be fun. post comment

[21 Jan 2004|05:30pm] This has nothing to do with anyone I know, just a random song that was inside ~~~ There's blood slowly dripping down the walls of his soul The spear of her words still lodged in his chest His hope destroyed, it's suddenly crushed by the girl that he thought was different than the rest Chorus: She's blinded him from the truth Hid her true intentions behind a veil Shrouded herself in deceptive affection Just so he would try and fail She stands triumphantly over his bleeding, lifeless body Sticks in the psear a little bit deeper He's broken forever, gasping for life Yet still, he wants nothing more than to keep her (chorus) Bridge: He claws at her feet her pants now bloodstained She doesn't give a fuck She delights in his pain But he's going to keep on fighting (chorus) 1 comment|post comment

[20 Jan 2004|10:45pm] Through all of the pain they shared on the phone The hugs, the tears, and the heartbreak It never happened between them They were never more than friends Blinded by the legions of girls Who consumed his life and his heart He never committed to the obvious choice The angel who watched from afar She was the friend who was always their With her conspicuous smile and auburn hair They jumped from the lilipads from one to another post comment

[20 Jan 2004|10:47pm] Standing at the fringes of the battlefield Witnessing the mayhem Hearts ripped out, trust destroyed, souls forever broken Certain death lies beyond. A prize sits unguarded at the end of the destruction Waiting to be claimed All that lies between us is the chaos and havoc Of the never ending battle. Chorus: So I stand here waiting For the battle axe to strike And cut me in half As I try in vein to fight The battle will be won By the chaos in between Most likely I will lose And the prize will only be seen I grab the flask in my hand and take a swig of ignorant hope To fuel me through this fight I don't hesitate for an instant To consider the lousy odds I just grab my dying faith in her And run blindly into the fight (chorus) Bridge: Can I even possibly win? This battle has been lost so many times before I see the suffering right in front of me Yet I still try in vein to score (chorus) (acoustic guitar:) The battle's halfway over And I'm coming out on top The fire burns above me I wait for it to drop And as I run through mesmerized By the flame above my head It distracts me from the prize And soon, I'll be dead I'm within reaching distance Of the girl I desire My eyes won't stop burning My soul is on fire As I reach out and touch her I fall to the ground Will she help me up? Will she make a sound? I don't know if she wants me But I still try in vein I lean into her ear And whisper her name. post comment

[13 Jan 2004|08:27am] I can't say why Can't start to guess how We've gotten as close As we seem to be now We must live in the moment That is all we can do I just wish I could spend This moment with you You live far far away But you feel so close to me now This majestic connection between us Is so hard to place a finger on or try to figure out So I won't, I will just have faith in you. In the nights before we met You roamed elusive in my dreams The girl I always wanted But never could quite reach Well, now you've reached me, maloussii And the feeling is pure bliss It is beautiful, just like you One I hope I never miss All of this emotion is coming awfully fast I won't try to see from where it comes or wonder if it will last I'll just hold and cherrish it sweetly That's all that I will do I'll hold it tenderly in my arms Grasped tightly next to you You rock my world like a 9.5 and though we've never met You're the girl from my sweet effervescent dreams Who I never thought I could get post comment

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